Mempersia

Mempersia, usahlah.
Kerana batu, sampai masanya, kan menyerah pada laut.
Kerana cinta bisa tergelincir pergi seperti pasir,pabila ombak datang, dari celah jari-jari.

- merujuk kata-kata Michael Faudet.

Kuat

Kalau kau kuat,
kau tak pijak orang.

Kau angkat.

Hurairah

When late mom first told me Abu Hurairah was a cat-lover and that the nickname given to him itself means 'Daddy Cat', I thought to myself, if I were to have a nickname I want it to be Ummu Hurairah.


Ummu Hurairah.
Meow! That's right :)

Tapi belum pernah guna nick tu lagi.

Mekanisme pertahanan

Persis dedaun semalu;
disentuh, kuncup
- hatinya.

Takut.

Starbucks incident

The caramel hot chocolate was still very hot that talking should be much easier than sipping the drink but it wasn't but it happened anyway. She sipped a little and put the cup down. Then she sipped again. The caramel hot chocolate cooled down with time. Being exposed to the cold night air, it didn't take long. She got to sip more and more without burning her tongue. Half went down to her intestine leaving another half. The drink was too sweet for her that she wished she brought a bottle of plain water like she always do wherever she go. Somehow that night she didn't, just like how she left a part of her stance behind to be there. The drink wasn't cheap and leaving it unfinished would be a waste despite someone else was paying for it. She don't get caramel hot chocolate regularly anyway so why forsake. Sips after sips and half of the another half went down her throat. She forgot how she can't handle too much caffeine. Dizziness crept all over her head. Stomach felt so empty. Heartbeat was faster. And then there was the slight nauseous feeling. Composure retained. She didn't sip anymore. It was then just the alternation between speech and pause. Approximately 3 hours passed since the moment the bottom of the cup of the hot chocolate first settled down on the metal table under the canopy outside the coffee shop.

"I'm sorry but we're closing in 30 minutes"

Half an hour passed.

"Im sorry but we are now closed"

Walked to car.
Conversation resumed.
A little less than half an hour passed.
Then she drove back to where she should.



Things weren't the same anymore after that night.
 The untold made all the difference.

Life lessons...
...they come in various ways.

The War

Subconsciously in denial - the war of two opposite feelings.

Suddenly 'how do you feel?' becomes very difficult to answer...
...even when it's you yourself is asking you.


Kelebihan

Kau tak puas hati.
Konon dia lebih daripada kau.

Macam lah kau tu kurang.


Kau cuba bayang,
kalau kelebihan itu adalah memiliki 100 ekor kambing,
maka kalau semua orang punya sama kelebihan,
semua orang dalam dunia akan punya 100 ekor kambing.
Mungkin adil pada matematika,
pada alam? sekalian umat manusia? ekosistem?


Tuhan kurnia semua orang kelebihan berbeza.
Dengan hikmah yang tak perlu KBKK semata.
Perlu ada percaya.

M-day

Maka hari itu
adalah ulangtahun hari pada mana rakyat mendapat keizinan memerintah negara sendiri.

That's one thing, independence is another.

Tunggu

Besar giler tahap apa pun usaha kau
ada sesetengah perkara memang akan mengambil masa.

Kau letak lah baja power macam mana pun
ada sesetengah pokok yang takkan berbuah sebelum musim.







Putus asa

Kadang-kadang
berputus asa itu perlu.

Pemberian

Kadang-kadang,
kehilangan itu satu pemberian...
...yang saat tersingkapnya hikmah,
bisa buat kau melutut sujud atas tanah
kerana begitu besar Dia punya rahmah.

Kadang tersingkap cepat, kadang mengambil masa,
sementara itu, duhai jiwa nan berduka,
belajar redhalah.

Jodoh

Mungkin tuan hamba bukan paling menawan,
tak cukup mahu bikin hati sekalian umat tertawan,
namun pasti cukup untuk mendapat satu tawanan,
yang hati tuan hamba akan dia tawan.

Pathetic

Kadang dalam melihat gelas separuh penuh,
kita sampai tak mahu cuba mengisi,
khuatir tak bersyukur.

Apa tidak layak kemampuan memperbaiki untuk disyukuri?

Hadiah

Mungkin tak ribu juta, tapi cukup berharga.
Apa ada yang bisa beri dengan ikhlas yang macam dia.

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Mentang-mentanglah ikhlas itu tak bisa dikira.
Kadang-kadang kita anggap ia berkadar terus dengan harga.

Siapa tahu,
yang paling kita perlekeh itu,
yang paling mahal nilai ikhlasnya.